God, I know you can hear me.
I know you can see me.
But I wonder why I cannot hear you. Was it something I did? Was it something I said? Or is this time set apart, for me to listen and be still, to lean my ears closer, to move aside distractions, to hold steadily the course when the path is not seen, to cling to faith in the midst of intangibility?
I am not sure what I am supposed to be learning; I don’t have the course outline in front of me. The Bible gives the guidelines, that I can read, but the timing of which lessons are when is unmarked. And I am beginning to believe that some lessons are learned in an instant, while others take days, months, years, or lifetimes. And I am seeing that each learner moves at a different pace, and what comes easily to one may take infinitely longer for another. Is this all part of your plan? I trust it is. Help me to trust that you are always there – teaching, leading, guiding, even when I cannot see you or hear your voice. Help me move away distractions so that I can learn your teachings well. Help them to be written on my heart.
Mundri, South Sudan