I wish I...

I wish I…

Knew how to speak Juba Arabic better.

Could love people unconditionally, and see them as they really are through the eyes of God.

Was more patient with others and myself.

Always thought the best of strangers, not the worst.

Was more diligent in seeking people out, instead of waiting for them to come to me.

Encouraged people more, and tore them down less.

Was more willing to let go of ‘my’ things and share the resources I have.

Liked administrative tasks better, instead of dreading them (ex. Going to the bank.).

Knew more about agriculture, religion, and health care.

Was more willing to say YES to the Lord, instead of maybe.

Could be better at being part of people’s lives, even when I am physically far away - (When I am with you, I am all with you, but when I am not, I am not.).

Trusted more in the Lord and less in myself.

Cried out more on the behalf of others and less on my own behalf.

Could be all things to all people, or at least some things to some people.

Was better at, not as afraid to, and more consistently did share the reason for the joy I have.

Was more willing to step way out of my comfort zone and enter into the lives of others, meeting them where they are, not where I want them or expect them to be.

Was kinder in thought, word, and deed.

Feared only the Lord, and let all other fears slip away.

Could more descriptively and more often tell all my friends and family how much I love them and am so thankful for them.

Cried out to the Lord more in my desperation for him and him alone.

I wish all these things, and many others, and I know that the Lord is already helping and equipping me in many of these areas. I am excited about who I am only because of whom the Lord is, and my desire to know him and serve him continues to grow. I am an imperfect child of a perfect Lord, seeking his face, trying to trust and obey.